up to speed of light

It seems every one is on hiatus for school. So here’s my up date: I have a full course work load, looking for another crappy low paying job, I found that I will graduate this summer, me and jeff are still going good, Sam is with child (I know but its working), Omaha sucks, there was a revolution in Taiwan yesterday night and my favorite season is upon us. Happy Fall!

People

Missed My Opportunity

awkward and misplaced here in this city.
I should have left to a different place or different university in Wisconsin or Seattle. i am a college student with no friends that are true college students, a young adult with no young adult experiences, a unique person in a bland stifling environment (UNO and Omaha are for middle aged mid life crisis family values this is not for a college kid). i want to be young, naive and invincible. all i want is to leave this suburban city-town. in doing so i rushed from high school to career, i love college, the vibe the ideals and the struggles. college fits me and my crazy courious personality. really my college comes in between my jobs. but i never went to true college nor will i continue to go. after i graduate that will be the end until i go back as an adult if i choose. i look at my life and get worried because soon i will be working the 9 to 5. where was my kegger, my poetry reading, my dorm room memory, where was my life experimentation? i have to go to coffee shops by my self or to concerts alone. i dont hear that underground band. i don't hang out with college students i hang out with 40 year old white women or strippers, trust funds and 25 yr olds gay men that act 13. i guess i am unsatisfied but more so, disappointed because my life will always lack giving it the good old college try.
get me out of here! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Breeders create there on demise

White trash wedding
So my friend Sam is married. I am actually pretty upset about how this is allowed. I feel like she is a child now with the ability to make adult decisions.
Back to the beginning: they met about three months ago, never dated, basically fuck buddies, didn’t talk to each other for a month (half of the time they knew each other, they hated each other). They have sex with other people continuously, and no one minded. She even slept with his best friend a few weeks before the proposal and caused another rift. The Fiancé continuously battled any sort of relationship status and commitment phobic (had a longer on going affair with his neighbor and pissed sam off).
This leads to the proposal: Angered by Samantha fucking his friends and realized that his phobia had pushed any of his previous flings he freaks out. Wants sam to stop fucking around and is scared of dying in the war… oh hold up, wait, repeat! Oh that is right the on the fore front of fucked and failure of a relationship is: our man just joined the army. Suddenly he’ll die before he could get married, so he grabs the closest thing and there stands my friend, stupid and willing to find any replacement for her daddy who left years ago. Suddenly she has purpose and a reason for having lived. Its a legal document PROVING that some person loved her… she has the ring to prove it. Yet a signature does not mean he loves her and a ring doesn’t mean that either of them know what love actually is. This also leads to the most important reasons for the wedding: money. Now sammy receives a stiffen from the government. The purpose of the law is to reimburse wives of soldier who have their primary bread winners shipped off. (My neighbor Emilia also had a proposal before her ex left to Iraq. He said that he would split the monthly stiffen with her. She said no). the problem is that they have not discussed these detail in the week long engagement period, she has no idea that she will be responsible for paying his car payments, ect. She thinks its hers for fun and he’ll never see it. While he doesn’t know he just acquired 3 years of debt that sam is still living in.
The Ceremony: She thoroughly believes that she will marry once. The only thing that sam wanted from childhood was a pretty white wedding with the church, dress and bride’s maids to boot.
Sam got married in the court house, in a dress from doctor johns (a local porn shop), with a taco bell stain. She gave her self to him in a dress that she has had sex with many other men for her wedding. Her best friends from highschool and college are absent (including myself) but his best friend was there. They have announced that though they are married they will continue to have an open relationship. THEY DON’T KNOW EACH OTHER, THEY HAVENT DATED, THEY SLEEP WITH AND DATE OTHER PEOPLE, THIS ISNT EVEN AN OPEN RELATIONSIP BECASE ITS NOT A RELATIONSHIP!
If you know me I have done what I can, but reason has no place here.

Nebraskan in the Ocean

i for the first time swam in the ocean. cancun is fun and i can st speak a little mexican. hope all is going good back home. mucho luv ~brooklyn

Strangers with Candy

Big Bother then, now Big Business

here is some slang i kept hearing in London, '2014.' Like Goerge Orwells's 1984 it gives a what if sinerio to the media giants. everything personalized nothing of substance. it is a direct result of ipods and wikipedia (user written) attitude. tell me what you think...
2014

Pride is like Christmas for gays

HOPE EVERYONE HAD A HAPPY PRIDE.
I have partied all year round in preparation for this weekend. The weekend started off with the circuit party which I had never gone to before. It was entertaining to see all the family out that you haven’t seen all year. Me, my roommate and his bf went down to party it up. Congrats to Kee Ju and Jeff for getting picked to dance on stage with Thea Austin and promote ur dancing, (sadly I missed her, but heard she was phenomenal, you’ll have heard of her, just look her up). And kinda congrats to muscle brains Ross and Scott for showing those imported gogo boys how to really dance. The night was a bit of a blur and was fun, the only problem is when every one comes to see the Omaha pride you get the bad along with the good, as we left the concert jeff, kee ju and I were sandwiched between JC directly in front and Shamina directly behind (oh she is such a train wreck). On a side note it was funny to see how empty our neighborhood was at night.
The next day our neighbor’s big red house was all a buzz… in the morning, first time every one was up! Me and my roomie went down and met up with Tarrel Brian Kee Ju and Jeff to see Emilia march in the parade. After that Sam and Queen B came down and called off work for the celebration. It was fun to see the booths games and shows. Mrs. Morgan’s performance was AWSOME. Great job back up dancers, who was that cute asian dancing ;-) the other awesome show was, as always the n’joy girls. I missed getting my groove on with sammy, thanx for the dance girl. So sad for all of those who didn’t stay or never came down, at 5 the put on Rent the Musical.
And for dinner a group of us went down to Zio’s where we watched a young gay guy get confused about a napkin or how to use a knife… but its ok, he just bought a pair of glasses at sears that looked like Nicole Richie’s. needless to say that offered hours of jokes for me.
By the time the night came around Amber took the Stage and gave a great performance and she will me pictured on her myspace. My sis also came down and had a blast with me and sam. I stayed at the Flixx and socialized. Then went to an after party at the Tip Top (it is so cliché).
The next day almost rainbowed out it went up to the Q for the closing party and saw a pretty awesome show.
Hope ya’ll had a happy pride.

Reliving pride:
Amber
Thea Austin
N'Joy
The Q

The President and 666

the anti-christ cometh and foreseen for thousands of years. now were any of us surprised that 'W' came to Omaha on 6+6+06. it just reminded me of Dante's 9th circle of hell, where hell is represent as 'no where.' But our hellish middle of no where region has Strat Comm, so we can see how this could also fit into some Nostradumous perditions.
for further explanation of Omaha as a middle of no where look into the Colbert Report "They have no accents."

Been Busy

Hi you guys, sorry I have not posted, it felt too much like school work. Well my London trip rocked, however, it was far more educational than recreational (except one spontaneous weekend I flew to Ireland and crashed in two girls hotel room). But I learned some impressive stuff, I walked around the news high-tech floor of Reuters (Euro’s AP) spoke with executives to large world wide PR and Ad firms, got business cars/advice, most importantly I was given the chance to pitch the group ideas. These things that I will have to work for my entire career to get opportunities like that again. by the last few weeks I was hanging with another group of students so I got out and about, had fun the last night I met up with 2 awesome Australians (I was to hunt them down). All in all, my trip was cool and as always I miss England here. But when I arrived I got to see my friends that I so desperately missed and now I have been swimming and going to baseball games and enjoyin little Omaha stuff.
This weekend was Lincoln’s pride, so I went up and supported. it was by far a lesbian fest, so I LOVED it. In fact the night before me and jeff went down to the lesbo bar here and enjoyed our selves fully. I also hung out with my sister and she brought her 1 year old which lesbians loved! I also took my sis to her first drag show and she had fun but got pissed b/c she couldn’t wear half that shit, then danced till 1 in the morning.
But BIG new for me… a new stangers with candy movie is come out next month, AWSOME!

Problems

ok, problems with london... it runs on like nebraska time, shops close at 6, most resturants close btwn 7-9 and pubs close at 10 while most clubs close at 1 or 2, ever thong is doubled in the £ (bad exchange rate) the busses try to run you over and the people i am going with are the worste clubbers out there! i have gone to 1 club in 1 night n I am thru. stupid striaght people (i dont know why so many gay men pretend to be, seriously it sux to be straight the only good thing ya'll have on ur side is the catholic church and even then u cant fuck) yea i want my friends here to GO TO A MUSEUM OR PALACE(i know its crazy here in Eng.) literally tonites entertainment is: drinking £2.00 beer in ur hotel rooms, i am not joking at all. this isnt Idaho, people here arnt fun and i dont know how to meet the locals. But us NE people are just used to doing that and its there comfort zone. i am fucking it all and walking aroud tinght. hope all is cool with you am spending way to much $ and being offer extasy out side of breeder bars. ill talk to you later i miss u guys.

Its better than France

not a big surprise. things that i have learned. if it has flow in the beer title it is very bitter. number 2 (its a biggie) busses dont stop for people... they have the right away, this has caused my funny moments. uck fish and chips, really tho, people werent joking when they saud the English were bad cooks, they put peas in EVERYTHING (or at least a lot). if you dont beleive just check out the demond barber of fleet street (its was a little different than peas but still yuck!). i havent yet explored any historical areas : ( i am studying very modern stuff, the BBC is cool but i wouldnt mind walking into the tower of London. well all is good on the home feild suffering with the awful exchange rate (almost twice our dollar) but i get along with people and my roomies (they are all straight and collecting beer cans). Cheers Mate.

Howdy form a cloudy London

i have arrived!! and yet to piss any one off. well this cost me $ or £ so i have to be quick with many spelling errors. i visited Winsor castle and checked in to the royal national hotel. ill tell more leter Cherrio!

A Cloudy Hello from London

well i made it safely and wondered into an internet cafe. this cost per pounds so i have no time to proof read or link pics. after 10hrs in the air we landed and drove around the first song \i listen to is Hear You Me by jimmy eat world, down load it it was such a perfect song by luck. we ist pretty metropolitan here and i am starting to love it. i hope i get to know my class a little better than at the start of the semester. i visited winsor castle and walk around. good time. alright you guys ill catch up later, Cherrio!
ps u'll all be proud i have yet to piss off the english... but i have yet to go to the pub

well i am off to London in just a few days. hope all is goin well for you.

Summer Work

well i beat out 10 other canidates for an unpaid summer position with the omaha chanmber of commerce. further forcing my stay here in the O City.
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coming out of my hole to say "hi...

"Nothing like the smell of balls sweat and duct tape to ward off the anxious feelin of looming finals." the night after i went up to Linc to a drag show. pretty good and cheap entertainment. now back to my social exile. hope all is well

i put the mmmm in S and M

I dont know if i should put this on my blog. So this weekend i went to a 'special party' and got flogged. there is this group called Spank Candy in Omaha. it is an S and M (and kinky) sex performance group, i have seen them before at the Rox and Erotic Art shows that i have gone to [i have told you about that right? anyway,] i was invited to a party hosted by the corky bunch at some big Layer's house in west O, it was actually a little more south of my parents house, 196th and something. Well i went Paris's house who had two draws of nothing but leather and harnesses to get ready with my boyfriend. Jeff slipped in to a revealing skin tight Fantastic Foreplay movie costume (which was delightfully out of character for him) and i got latched up and binded into a confusing leather harness, oh and a pair of killer boots and Paris donned so leather gladiator garb. so all wrapped up and alcohol in hand we track of regency to westward praying to god we didnt get pulled over. i was excited for free alcohol and whipping lessons [i just laughed out loud in the middle of the library right now]. with in a few minutes of arriving i was chained to a wooden X. i dont even remeber getting up there, but any ways i didnt really care. i posed for the camera with a zoolander face while Jeff and Paris pretended to hit me hard. to be honest i plain forgot that some of these people are really really into this. the owner of spank candy showed jeff how to hold the whip correctly and improved his swing. she took a few fake shot while i had Paris pour me some alcohol.... p.s. i hadnt even drank yet this is just me. well Paris tried the whip me, the girl tried the whip, but my demand was only jeff could truly hit me because i could tell him how. i was too demanding and talkative... i was actually carrying on a conversation about how the different whips where like types of cheese [you know some are more sharp, some are more smooth]... well after a while the whipping got more accurate and harder, and then i saw jeff standing in the corner. -ok, this was the fourth person up after like ten minutes! umm no. i just watched the movie Hostel the night before.
ok, here is the BIG problem... there was no safety word given! WHAT THE HELL!. so i was chained up and my friends didnt really know what to do (but i do make friends with stupid people). so i had to think- they like the submissive and whining would only made it worse... and if there is one thing i have learned about crazy people the only way to win is be more crazy. so i leaned into the whip and ran my mouth, please who is going to win a war of the words me or some 60 year old balding man with a pony tale in leather, thank god i know how to run my mouth. he stopped but it went on for two industrial Goth songs before it ended! well after that i watched a Paris's bf get electrocuted in the nipple and grabbed like a dog by females and really wanted to leave. the whipping guy got creepy and kept touching me and fallowing me. so, in short i found out i am neither submissive of dominating i just cant take it seriously... even when i was tied up with the weirdo guy flogging me i kept laughing and posing for the cameras, i am too light hearted about dark shit. not to mention it really didnt turn me on. i just like to have a great pair of shoes on. S and M, ehhh, i am over it. it ended before it began. i might post some pics.

Happy Easter, and a late Passover (for my jew-cy friends love sweet manochevits and kosher kneidlach).

Bigotry is a Slippery Slope

it seems intolerance is a slippery slope. our friends are back on campus. last year they condemned, in protest, fags and lesbians ('fags will burn in hell'). it was around this time last year that they were handing out these brochures. well they are back and this time with more bigotry. Apparently Jesus rejects... homos, lesbos, baby killers, unsubmissive wives, rebellious children, fornicators, adulterers, Buddhists, Muslims, Mormons, Roman Catholics, money lover, thieves, liars, drunkards, lazy Christians ... oh, racists and about 20 or other so groups that are going to hell. People have got to stop this intolerance. Let god judge in peace or you'll miss his verdict. they are obviously confusing their your own truths. i dont know why or how it gets so bad, these people are getting crazy, but damn many were pissed. on another note the day of silence it coming up.