I feel like I am having an out of body experience. It is one of those weird circumstances where suddenly you look around and you see yourself in a room in a city and wonder, how did I get? fully knowing the path that was given but amazed out how it laid out. Seeing the luck that you had and the opportunities that you missed. And you can compare that imagined present life, you see yourself and realize that you could never had imagined your life right now and thus, left completely confused by your old dreams and new goals without feeling like a failure or missing out. But I am rather satisfied looking at my self sitting in the office typing this out and dreaming up he rest of my life fully knowing that it wont come true but also completely enamored with the fact that I have know idea where I am headed, just keeping my hands on the steering wheel.
i like the new Coldplay song
"One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of Sand I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield My missionaries in a foreign field For some reason I can't explain Once you go there was never, never an honest word
That was when I ruled the world"
I don’t feel quite fulfilled with my life (and as i shouldn't there is still much to accomplish) and feel like there are holes missing, but as my 24th birthday approaches I see a bridge with in the next 10 years. A crossing, where I no longer envision the future but reflect on my past. Well its nice to not focus on the slowly arriving fate of my life and not look look back on fondness, bound by age, realizing I may have missed some opportunities. Currently, I live in this current limbo of now. i am not young and i am not old I am just ruling the world and trying not to miss an opportunity
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